i don't get it. this isn't right. there's nothing right about it.

my father died less than a month ago. my cousin has a very serious cancer scare yesterday, and now...my father-in-law was rushing to the hospital for his heart!

ok, let's top this one off...let's just pull all the triggers out! he's in the hospital and i'm supposed to care? i had the SOB arrested, and i'm supposed to care???

triggers, triggers everywhere. there's so much activity inside me that i'm afraid to move from the puter and games. i have to keep the body and mind busy to keep some peace and prevent complete dissociation. there's alot of angry here. it could get ugly.

when will it stop?