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Originally Posted by chaotic13
Foomph,
I'm struggling with this issue too. Especially the feeling "dirty and nasty and sick and twisted and gross" if some part of me does actually become aroused. Several months ago I attempted to express this to my T, hoping that as Rap mentioned I could get some help dealing with it. It was a very awkward thing to attempt to present. I think my T actually got what I was saying, didn't judge it, but unfortunately wasn't very helpful. At this point I haven't ventured back to this issue and I am reluctant to raise it again.
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That's too bad, Chaotic. My T knows it all. Actually,
HE'S the on that brought it up and suggested I check my unconcious for this type of thing.
I think I'm really, really fortunate that I have my T. Since he's not quite finished his master's yet he's so fresh from school, keen and our session are videotaped and he reviews them between sessions. he really gets me and I'm impressed (I have to admit I was skeptical when i found out he was still a student).
In any case, you could maybe bring it up again having done some research on the subject, and ask her opinions on things without relating it directly to you....then ,maybe the convo would come to you and
your experiences.
I never actually discussed *too much* regarding pleasure in abuse, but have touched on it. Also-he has told so many things about what happens to your psyche and stuff when that does happen and how it affects your development which has been tremendously helpful.