I am not sure what I have but I stood in our local club and told everyone about the last two episodes I had. I had thoughts of hurting my children. I told everyone I was an acholic. I ask my cousin to fire me at a position. I got thrown out by police when I tried to get that job back. I thought everyone would hate me and they don't. You can't change the past so just move forward. You remeber it but alot of other people will understand you were sick and won't even think of that when they see you. I would not worry about it. I was told people do alot worst thing than what you did.