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I am a 20 year old male, who at this time in my life feel I am lost and starting to fall into something near depression. I have felt a sort of depression on and off in my life shortly after turning 14, not a true depression but signs and feelings of sadness triggered by random things. I believe it revolves around one thing, women and relationships. I have dated a small bit, but each time there is a hitch. The girls I date are not really in any sense my type, I am somewhat mature for my age (or so I believe), I have a strong sense of of what makes me happy and completes the gap many people I see on a day to day basis seem to have. I am young and according to the world around me, I am better off hooking up with random girls, drinking too much beer, and worrying about how much of a badazz I am. I am told on the regular that I am a good looking guy, so I assume I can meet girls. I work out somewhat of a passion now, and am starting to get the buff and toned look, not to impress but for health and good mentality in life. I have two good friends who are in serious relationships, and this kinda bothers me a bit. Here is were the depression comes in, I see them togther happy and content, and hearing the "why don't you date or at least try to get laid" line, I feel more lonely than ever. I am a good all around guy, not to be self centered, but I am funny, good looking, well rounded, and have a general respect for women. But it seems that girls (my age) are into some other type of man, and even older women for that matter. I have passion in life, there are things I love that dont include getting smashed, getting laid, and going back and doing it all over again next weekend. Every girl I have met seems to be living for the party, and the jerk who tells her she is useless. I don't really understand the whole thing at all. I am in fear of that fact that because I don't go out and try and mingle and hookup, that I will end up being alone for ever, which in the end seems like a very sad and poor outlook.

Why does it feel like I am never meant to expierence love, or a soild reklationship? I feel really alone in this, and it is getting worse as I get older. Am I alone?

Sorry to complain, I like to see the positive but it doesnt seem to be around here right now in my life.

Thanks for any help.