Life some people live such a full and happy life.. Some people couldnt ask for more.. Me, life is a cold miserable place at least for me it is...When I was younger I use to go to church every sunday, would walk by myself get myself up to go (my family was never into church). I can remember my stepfather when he was being cruel wouldn"t allow me to go as punnishment for some stupid reason. However it use to devestate me.. Now that im older I no longer have the faith the strong with out a doubt faith the way I use to. I question god and I question why things happen the way they do.. Almighty powerful god who can dp amd heal anything and anyone just believe!!! Well what happen tp me? Did I fall in the cracks, did he turn his back on me, why is it that i have gone through hell my entire life?? What did I do so wrong..I oftem lay awake at night asking these things over and over cause I dont get it!!!!! Am I going to be damaged for the rest of my life?? Was I always damaged goods so to speak since my birth?? I dont understand how does he choose whos going to be loved protected and whos going to live a disfunctional life for the rest of their life..Whos going to have everything handed to them and whos going to half to struggel and have nothing and deal with such unthinkable things?/ How does he decide whos going to always have their children and who has to deal with something horrible happening to their child????? My faith sadly is changing more and more everyday...Just dont know anymore..