Wow Lise, thats great you going off the travel.! You will meet loads of people! Try to look forward to that! And focus on it and plan it! I think thats great, i wish i did that!

And then college.. Now you deffo will meet new friends in college. I know its a lonely place for you right now and sounds like it always has been. You are so young and you never think it will get better and looking back when i was 17 i thought exactly the same.. when someone said to me "it will get better or easier" i felt so mad and thought they just dont understand and i would go back in my lonely place, not talking to anyone.

But it was so true.. them people who i thought were patronising me and not understanding me were right. I will always struggle and always have problems like everyone on this forum but its learning how to cope. I have learnt alot since i was 17 and lost with all these thoughts and feelings..dont get me wrong i am still learning now 10 years later but am able to recognise the thoughts and feelings and deal with them when they arise... dont give up hope.. look forward to your travelling plans and college, the next stage in your life. One of many more to come.. I beleive you will feel better. No doubt in my mind...

We are all here for you, just a touch of the botton. xx