Should be working and I can't concentrate. If I had not exhausted ALL of my FMLA in my depressive period in February, March and April, maybe it wouldn't be a problem. I want to spend a week under my bed curled up in a ball.
If you go onto Youtube and search ECT you can find a bunch of really crazy people who have some outlandish thoughts about ECT.
But back to the work issue...just hope this breezes by fairly quickly so I don't offend anyone outright and lose my job. My self control is really peeling off.
I figure, I have about 5 years to pay off my car then I can go batshit crazy. Not before then, because it would deeply affect my lifestyle.
I'm embarrassed about living with my mother again. Probably because she isn't a good support system being crazy and refusing treatment then verbally and emotionally abusing me....
Oh well. We do what we have to to survive. I mean, at least I want to survive right now.