All I can say is ....YAY YOU, MARJAN!!
You have proven to yourself that you come first. What a wonderful progression.
The sweet thing about self-acceptance and betterment is, the more positive we apply to ourselves, the more we attract TO ourselves.
You mark my word...your positive WILL attract positive...it's only a matter of time. And the positive flow seems to come in a tsunamis. I so love that!
You are a wonderfully compassionate and giving person. Good things will come to you. How can they not with such a positive outlook such as yours?
Best wishes~
Shangrala