No one except my mom is trying to convince me to stay out of the hospital - aside from not wanting me to go there too much. But the hospital would only be a safe place, my medicine needs little tweaking - if any. Being suicidal was a cognitive thing, not chemical, I'm very sure of it because I've learned to recognize the difference between the symptoms of a chemical imbalance and problems with negative thinking. Between the stresses I've just come through and my struggling with lack of faith it was no wonder I should start thinking like I was. But the group last night gave me things to think about, and I've found more faith in God again, that I don't have to know how He'll work things out, I just have to remember He's in control. I'm still watching myself, and I'll go if I need to. But I think I'll be ok.