I feel like I'll be unhappy if I'm too underweight again & I'll be unhappy if I'm at a normal & healthy weight. I want to be too skinny again, though! Of course, my treatment team & others won't let me get down to the "too low" weight I was last year. I remember when I got cold easily, dizzy easily, & suddenly felt weak & tired. I even think I can never be too thin. I think, "I'll drop down to too low weight here & I'm fine, so I'll drop down to even lower weight here, & on down more. Of course, I'd end up inpatient & if the numbers on the scale were way too low, I could have a feeding tube; I've seen several who are inpatient where I go, & some had a feeding tube. I saw two again this week who did. I don't know what to do.