Thank you to everyone for caring. I feel like I can talk to my best friend, and she does understand some of this. She told me today that her dad has issues with depression and sometimes he's good and others he's not. And that maybe my bf is just having a bad time right now. But it does help me to have all of you to help me with this. It gives me another place to ask for support and suggestions. And if it ends up that we dont work out I will have somewhere to talk when my heart is breaking. I really feel as though I've never been in love like I am now. And I'm gonna need all the help I can to help him and get both of us through this. I really think about our furture and I want the best for him and I hope all the time that the dreams he has will happen. And I will be so proud of him.

Okay i think i'm rambling sorry.