Haha its funny you two talkin in american accents.. (well im imagining it obviously).

I like it the boring UK, i'd love you see america and see if it is what its like in the movies on the tele!

Anyway, Lise, you said before you didnt think things would get worse but they have.. And now your thinkin things wont get any better?? You know what im goin to say next dont you

Try to take each day as it comes, i know its easier said that done but its a "must do" sometimes.

And dont get me wrong, i still dont cope and want to hurt myself and end it all but i know that feelin i get wont last forever. Its more about understanding yourself and the illnes of depression/bipolar etc.. And the older you get the wiser you get and the more you will understand it.

Why dont you keep a mood diary, and moniter each day how you are feeling and what thoughts you have which is makin you feel that way. Sometimes you think things in your subconcious without even realising it and that causes horrible feelings. So try it, to write it down in a mood diary... And you may see some sort of pattern and may help you understand yourself, even if just a little bit.. you'll get there. Your a tough little cookie you xxx