Hi there stars...

Your situation reminds me very much of the situation my girlfriend and I were in before we broke up this last week. She was younger than me, and so our maturity levels were on two different planes. Although she was very mature, we acted different due to our age difference. However, we were so in love.. We would have very amazing times, but then we would have horrible times, like the fights you two went through...

Your boyfriend, I hate to say, reminds me of myself a bit. When I would get mad, I would say things to my ex that I shouldn't say. I would bring up the past sometimes, and would call her names as well. I always regretted it, and always apologized. She would stay with me, but unfortunately she was not as forgiving as you.. She couldn't handle it as much as some people would, and that was one of our downfalls. I could not help the fights. She would lash out at me, and I would lash out at her. Considering I am borderline bipolar and I also suffer from depression I couldn't help the things I said. I didn't mean them, and in all honesty I loved her more than anything, but I did lash out. It was difficult..

She was suffering from depression as well, and I believe also had symptoms of being bipolar. However, when she would say things I knew it was only because she was upset -- not because she meant them. With me she felt like I meant them I guess, and she wouldn't forgive me like I would forgive her. A few times she told me she wished I would die, and I didn't even think of it again. I didn't care that she said it, because I loved her and I knew she didn't mean it...

Now we are broken up, and I hate it. I hate myself for it, and I blame myself for everything. I feel like I ruined it. The only advice I can try to give you honey, is to try to not let the things he says hurt you too much. Don't take it to heart. Right now I believe he is insecure about himself. I think he feels like you are too good for him, and that you don't love him. That is probably where the jealousy stems from. I think that he needs some help, because people who get angry like that do need a bit of counseling. It may help him find the root of his anger and allow him to stop it. As for you, just try not to take it to heart. I don't think you deserve to be yelled at, but if there is no physical violence I would try to just brush off the things he says. Don't talk to him when he is mad like that, but you don't have to hate him for it. I don't think he does mean it, I think he is lashing out.

I know that relationships like this are hard, but true lovers find a way to come out of it. Also, everything in our lives happens for a reason. He may not be the one, but there is a reason you're with him right now. I wish you all the best because I know how this feels.. If you ever need someone to talk to, I am here. God Bless.