I know how you feel. I don't know how to help or give advise but there are so many of us that know how you feel. I have been bulimic since I was 16 I am now 26. I wish I never taught myself to purge. It is like a drug. You now it can kill you but it makes you feel so good. Have you considered overeaters anonymous? I hear good things about that. Lets face the problem lies far more deep than the food. I have a family that loves me and yet I feel like the food completes me in some way. If I am happy, I eat if I am sad I eat , if I am bored I eat. I will find any excuse to eat. I try so hard not to keep junk food in the house but that is hard to do with kids. I eat my daughters snacks all the time.

I hope you know there is help out there for you and you are not alone.