Bananas, as much as you can, be kind to yourself. This just happened today, and it may be too soon to judge the incident's real effect on you, your b/f and your relationship.

Does the situation allow for you to tell him what you've told us? Are you afraid of his reaction if you do? If he became upset-sad rather than upset-angry, that could easily mean he cares a lot.

Regardless, your feelings and pain are real to us and special. They cannot diminish you here.