dayley Such tough decisions! I'm sorry you are in such dilemmas.
Surely adoption would be a good option, and personally, would think well of you to do that.

I find it hard to believe you find your "true" self when with this guy... perhaps you find a hidden self? In any case, I hope you find peace with your decisions. Can you work out adoption situation now, and perhaps get help with the medical and all from the perspective parents? TC