Hi Rebbie- I'm not a psychologist and I've never even touched 1 cigarette in my life so I'm probably not the best person to give advice to you. I have battled a few addictions in my day (gambling- which I've overcome and pornography- which I still struggle with). I know what it feels like to be addicted to something, to want to quit, and not be able to. #1. You're not going to overcome this addiction overnight. Gradually smoke less and less. Try to smoke 1 or 2 less cigs a day. #2. I think you should make an attempt to live healthier. Exercise more (do it gradually, go for a 10 minute walk per day, then 1/2 hour walk, and then maybe even a jog). Drink more tea and stuff that is good for you. Try to eat healthy and once you realize all the great things you are doing to be healthy, you'll realize how silly it is to smoke. That being said, smoking isn't a sin. You're not doing damage to no one but yourself. It's an unhealthy, ugly habit, but you will learn to get rid of it. Just hang in there and avoid all of the negative self talk. Phrases like "I'll never quit" or "I'm a failure" or "Why aren't I strong enough to quit" will not help at all. Be aware what you are saying to yourself. Be aware of your inside voice. You'll be okay. All is well. Good luck to you Rebbie!