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Old Jul 19, 2009, 12:25 AM
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This weekend me and my girls went to stay with my mother in law on her farm for the weekend. When im up here its such a peaceful place, in the middle of nowhere surrounded by farms and fields and mtns. I seem to always relax when im here and its so nice. I believe my girls see a difference in me cause I see a difference in them. Though this weekend isnt the greatest me and the girls are sick. Yeasterday it was my youngest with the fever, today its my oldest with the fever and well all of us are so sick to our stomachs. I havnt slept much this weekend tonight I cant sleep and im so tired but thoughts just keep racing in my head. When im away from my husband im so relaxed and things just seem easier. Its sad isnt it.. I know my husband and I should divorce and thats what I want for all of us to be better not just me and the kids but I want him to have a better life as well.. I know their is someone out their who he can be happy with and I want that for him but he wont leave he thinks us being togeather happy or not is whats best for the kids.. Im not strong enough to just leave, I dont want to hurt him or the kids but what kind of live are we living we both know were not happy and cant be togeather, we both know and so does everyone else that were only togeather for the kids.. I just dont know what to do anymore..Just dont know..