I still feel so strange. I feel really really depressed and I can't even cry. I want to. I want to have that "release" moment. But it just doesn't come. I feel sick and awful. I feel alone again.
I don't want to feel like this anymore it's too much for me. I'm not strong enough. It's all just pilling up on top of me and I've already fallen but it just keeps building. I just want it all to stop for a moment.