wantoheal, its so nice to have someone "WANT" to understand about this subject! Its so tiring to try and deal with it and try and conceal it and try to not be overwhelmed by it..T says this part was formed when I was about 2 or 3, shes not to sure exactly....when I broke down in therapy recently this part showed itself to her and to me for the first time...at the time it wanted to kill the part of me that was breaking down and experiencing a very early trauma...I wish it wasn't there, I wish I could be rid of it...sigh, any how, thanks for replying to me...a lot of times people back off...I can understand that, but it leaves you very lonely at a time when you already feel very lonely.