Haha. Thanks for clearing that one up so quickly, P7!!
Hmmm, FooZe the part about not SI'ing.. Sounds intriguing... You know, I came home today after a good weekend and all of a sudden felt lonely and crap again... It always happens when i go home to my flat alone.. Funnily enough, i was going to SI because something really triggered me.. I think I cut between my fingers on a glass that was cracked and I hadn't noticed when I was washing up, but yeah.. I got triggered and went to SI. But then I thought 'wait a minute... REWIND!!!! *strange rewinding noisessss* I had a great weekend and I was happy whilst at Connors, I found the food side difficult, but I was happy. So why spoil it now just because I'm alone? It's not as though I won't be talking to Connor tonight...' So, i didn't do it! YAY!!! Today is exactly a month since I last did it
So yeah... I = big fat CHUFFED!
I just read the part you linked me to and it all looks SO useful! i think I may have to print that page out and stick it on my wall
Being that tiny part of me?? How?!?!?!?! If I knew how, then I'd have done it long ago.. I guess that's where I'm stuck.
Blahhhh. I'm still not well. On Friday, I blacked out again for about 50 minutes.. I didn't even remember getting up or anything, all I remember is panicking when i realised I was late to get picked up by Connor's Dad by
20 minutes!!!! NO! Why did it have to happen then?? I then went to Connor's after running with my guitar to where i was supposed to meet his Dad at the car and his Dad found me *phew!* and just made light of it. I didn't tell him the real reason - I didn't want to cause a fuss. When I got to the house, Lisa (Connor's Mum) took one look at me and said "Kirsten... Are you okay love? You look a bit green... Are you still fainting and such?" I nodded and she said "Jesus Christ. Well umm.. Go sit down for a bit but get a drink first." So I did that, but then went up to Connor's bedroom and found a cute, cuddly sleeping lion in his bed
(that was Connor!:P) he woke up as I opened the door and welcomed me into the bed for a cuddle which was oh so good
he asked about the fainting and I told him about what happened before I met his Dad. He looked worried and said I looked a bit pale.
He looked after me well, though, running around for me, making me sit down and getting me drinks, moving the sofa so that I could lie on his lap while he played on his xbox 360 XD so I was happy enough. Just really, really annoyed at myself and my stupid body for blacking out and making me late
GRRR. But meh. I've just got a horrible banging headache and feel really sleepy and yucky today. Not good.
I need sleep, but I have to see my key worker and get some other stuff done so I'm gonna be awake until I can be awake no more, which will hopefully be at around 9pm tonight. That would be good as I have to be up early in the morning... Again.
Just. Neeeeed. Sleeeeeep!