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Ok so here we are at the end if yet another day
and here I am crying yet again
Yes folks its about her again
I am so tired of all this crying I cry about her
I cry because I just cannot see how I can keep doing
any of this stuff you know I hate feeling so alone and depressed
I hate having to fight my daughter on stuff
Tonight she came home from work and the front door was
locked so what does she do she kicks it
I said hang on most "normal" people would just go ok
no she comes in yelling why did you lock the door
I told her I did not lock it shes says well clearly you did
I again said no I did not lock it and shes is like oh stop lying clearly you did
arrghhh then she goes on about the kitchen cupboards and how I changed them back I told her its my kitchen she says no its not and she really starts to wind up even more
WHY!!! do I have to put up with this all the time
its not once a day its 6 or 7 times a day I know she is a teenager
heck she will not let me forget it but honestly this is beyond my
and I told her tonight that when her father has finished his trips for the year I am leaving for good her reply was yay good I hate you anyway and no one wants you here so go.
Do you have any idea how much that hurt
so yes here I sit crying at then end of yet another day
when will it end nicely ??????
The answer NEVER...... I figure that in this world some are meant to be loved and then there are the folks like me the ones that are not ever meant to be loved no matter what I will never give my heart
so freely to anyone ever again I figure it is not worth this pain.
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"Look at me, I'm a tangled puppet--I might be a mess, but I sure can survive."
--4 Non Blondes
"We don't create a fantasy world to escape reality, we create it to be able to stay."
--Lynda Barry
"Years Teach Us More Then Books"
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