That's all I can say now - I am fine. Because I just don't have the energy to say otherwise. It's like, I Am fine because I cant be bothered to be anything else...if you get what I mean.

F.I.N.E: Freaked out, insecure, neurotic, emotional.

Or you COULD say "I'm not fine". Or "I've been better".

Cus then of course if I do admit to being down, I'd have to explain to my T and then go through them horrible sessions in the tiny cramped room while a stuck up T stares at me with her stupid sympathetic face. Gah I hate that. Especially the awkward silences that fill the room.

Awkward silences are... awkward. I get you, it does make some things worse - but it CAN be good for you to sit in silence with your emotions and thoughts and stuff. If you don't like your T, what about switching to someone else?

GRR. Im so angry at therapy. Been doing it for longer than a year. And it has made things perhaps WORSE.

How has it made it worse? If you can think up concrete examples, perhaps it's a good idea to consider finding another therapist?

Ive got loads more to get off my chest but I have problems communicating how im feeling cus there's so many thoughts trying to burst out and then everything i write is 'bitty' and confusing so yeah. I'll stop.