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Originally Posted by Secret
I meet most of the requirements, but one I know I don't.... I don't cry. Not sure why but I can't remember when the last time I did. Didn't cry when my brother, parents or son died and if there ever was a time to it would have been then. I guess I feel that crying doesn't solve anything. It could be that the military conditioned me that way. I don't know.
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Secret,
For me, it was a combination of the military backlash when I was a child--keep you mouth shut no matter what--plus the CSA/Trauma made me into one helluva good Keeper of The Secrets.
Tears were forbidden in my FOO--family of origin.
No offense to anyone, but they were probably forbidden because they hadn't been blessed...
Please accept my condolences on your losses..I am so very sorry.
The Garden of My Tears was drought stricken for a very, very long time. It was a retaliatory action on my part...never let 'em see you cry. Growing up it was one the few things I could control. I wasn't aware of it at the time, therapy brought it out in the open.
At times, my garden is water logged and this is all right with me. Others it's in drought mode again, which prompts me to look at what is going on in my life.
Know that you are loved,
Catherine