I have ordered that book, Somebody, and hopefully will have it this week. I need to understand why he would do this to me, yet still claim to care.

My concern is that it is too late, that I have blocked all emotion so quickly that it won't matter if that really is the reason.

Thank you for mentioning that book.

I wish I could do what I want, but <shrug> who knows what may happen and when.

Mary Alice