OMG, I really feel what you had to go through. A glimmer of hope, and then its over--again. I think the others are right about her still having some emotional attachment to you, you being a safety-zone. It probably is better for you to end the relationship here. You are a man with a good heart that has been broken. Let things heal. Go out somewhere normal to you, sit down, chat with somebody, make more friends, if even for the day. Talk to the men and women. We are all people eager to find the goodness in others. We'll send out some prayers for you. Hope you have a good day~