my ts fully booked this week.
im not seeing her till tuesday.

im so sick
of this
arguing
or being jealous
or worrying
of making him feel like **** without meaning to
of just
being here
and feeling this pain
and this emptiness
i couldnt get out again today
weak
pathetic
stupid girl
i want out.
i want to scream it, i want to shout it, i want to cry it, i dont want to go through this any more.
so empty.
so lost,
so lonely
so tired,
so angry

I WANT TO STOP PLAYING THIS STUPID GAME CALLED LIFE.

it hurts,
im hurting
and thats selfish and horrible and its tearing my life apart
i cant cope with this pain;
but i cant cut any more
i mean i dont have the means
i can burn but that pain
i dont want it any more
it used to be how i coped but i cant take any more pain
i just want it all over.
why cant it be over?

LET ME OUT.