Each birthday, I wish for the next birthday to have somebody with me...and it never happens...It's interesting, I go date and have a boyfriend each year, I celebrate their birthdays, but not for my birthday!

I always find myself alone at my birthday...that's so strange

I think I'm getting so negetive towards finding a partner....that's killing me...yes...losing hope....I don't want to lose my hope....but there is no energy left in me to look around for a partner...

sorry folks to bug you again with my negetivety....

with love
Marjan