I'm guessing that your T wants to find the right things to say to you. He cares about you. He probably is waiting to call until he can stop and think about what you told him.

You are NOT dirty or pathetic, there is no way your T thinks that. I would bet you cash that he believes you. I believe you. I think you are a good person, and valuable.

It was very brave to tell your T all of that stuff.