Treehouse,

You must be going through a zillion things right now. Be kind to yourself first of all, because what you did is HUGE and AMAZING work. Your T is probably feeling very honored to be working with you. It takes so much guts to be able to push forward especially through such gut wrenching stuff.

Remember that short period of time where you saw flowers around the office. I think that is when your insides of you were taking a big sigh of relief. I am surprised you didn't see shooting stars from what you did.

Just be kind to yourself, you deserve to just allow yourself to go through whatever you will go through the next couple of days. It is all part of the healing process.
Just getting that poison out of you will take your body some time to get used to the freer and lighter you. Allow for some adjustments to take place, you are rewiring your brain, you are processing something that has been frozen in time for so long. You are safe now, not like before. You can do this! It is hard I know, but you are flying and I am in awe of you.