(((((justfloating))))) So sorry this has happened to you. I think that all of us on PC can relate to how you are feeling. I have to say that I really think that you should copy/ print your posts and take them to your therapist. There is just something about you and your ability to get your words into print that is just outstanding. If you are having a hard time communicating with your therapist this is the way I think that you should do it. You are truly a wonderful, caring person with a lot of writing talent. I know that you want to be a writer and you are good at it. But right now I think it is a good weapon against your depression. Just a thought - take care - good luck - hugs for your day.