I have really been feeling my depression getting to me the last few weeks.

The children and I haven't really gotten out much, thanks to the sweltering heat and the rain storms...so it's been difficult being "stuck" at home. I don't mind being home, to a point, I guess I just wish that I had some time to myself to just rest, get some organizing done, and to just relax.

It's "funny", for so long (over eight years) I was sad (and lonely) about being childless...now I feel guilty for wanting some time alone. I wish that I could just get an even balance.

There's all of that, then my birthday just passed this weekend. It was a good birthday, and I'm thankful for my family, it's just that birthdays are always a mix of emotions for me...sadness, happiness, excitement, and a bit of a let down when it's all over.

I think that I mainly need to start seeing my therapist again, and then see my primary doc about my med's.

Sorry for the rambling. I thought it might help to get this out here.