Hey (((((((((((((((Christina))))))))))))))))))))

This sentence kind of jumped out at me.

I couldn't deal with the abuse stuff in therapy until I STOPPED trying to "grow up". I needed to let the young, hurt parts of me admit what happened before grown up me could even BEGIN to think about talking about it...and hopefully, eventually, accepting it.

I don't know...for me, the abuse happened when I was so young, and I didn't dare tell anyone, so I kind of "grew up" right then and there. Just pushed it away to the corners of my mind, made myself be brave...I told T early in therapy that I've felt like a "grown up" since I was really, really little.

So, now, I need time to NOT be grown up. That has been a big step in healing for me.

Can you let your guard down enough to NOT "need to grow up"?

This stuff is hard. You are doing good work. It just sucks, there's no way around it. But you are doing it.

Hang in there