((((Dance ))))
I am so sorry you are feeling this way - and Im sorry t is away whenyou need him.
In the past I felt .....well that there was no healing - but I am still here - t helped me - it was a struggle and it was not easy - but it can be done - you can do it - you can get through this - you can make it out the otehr side - T can help you
i know the dream was scary - and it seems like the truth but its not - its your mind telling you that these things are on your mind - I am glad you have reached out here - keep reaching out - it really does help.
Please stay safe.
P7
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet