perhapsbelligerent:

>i'll be doing fine, and then these little thoughts just creep back up on me. it's like a >circle. i'll work through these, and then i'll be back

I know that situation all too well. I have been having a constant battle with these negative thoughts. I posted a message about that in these forums and was given some very good suggestions.

Its like a constant group of thoughts, pushing each other around up there, fighting for center stage. The fight continues because one thought never gets center stage for very long.

I am working on this because I am tired of it. I want to be able to control my thoughts - after all, it is MY brain!

Hang in there. While you have a job, why not look around and see if there's anything else out there you can do. I know its a tough economy now, but perhaps you can find something while you're still at this job. AND - best of all, you can be choosy since you are still working!