I didn't mean it should be someone else, so I'm sorry it looks like that... I don't want anyone to feel bad.

My point was that getting stuck at the "why me" takes time away from getting better.

The reason I say No one likes me, no one loves me is cause it's true, I know it is cause I can feel it.

As I have read many times here, feelings aren't facts.......... (they are your feelings and are valid as such but our feelings sometimes are not "rational, objective truth" from the outside (I hope this makes sense!)

And I know everyone is making fun of me... I can tell what everyone is thinking when I look at there faces and they don't like me.

Ahhh, you don't know what people are thinking unless you ask them. After my assumptions of what others were thinking were always wrong I stopped assuming. I have a neighbor now who assumes all sorts of things about me. Her assumptions are her projections. I wish she would ask me before she assumes.

I know I haven't pushed you away yet... but sooner or later you won't want to talk to me anymore like everyone else.

Really................

And I can feel that everyone hates me... I just know they do, I can feel there hate coming at me in waves... I don't know why they hate me but I know they do.

Projections????????

I was always told no one ever want's to listen to me when I was younger... and when I say something, it seem no one cares so it must be true.

And who were these compassionate geniouses who told you this?

When you say something how are you saying it? Are you mumbling it so that no one can here it? Who are you saying it to? What else is going on in the situation? Really seeing what is going on is very helpful and helps healing. When you have come from a dysfunctional environment you learn dysfunction and can not possibly know anything else until you learn something different. Understanding what is going on and what you now have to learn is very helpful. I spent a lot of time doing this.