It is horrible, but true - the meds do not take all the pain away. I am on 6 different meds for my bipolar and ocd. I am suffering from a depression right now. I have been on meds for 16 years. The meds will work for a while and then they stop for some unknown reason. It takes forever to find the right medicine and combination and then it doesn't last forever. It has taken me over a year before to find the right combination of meds for a while. Plus I noticed you are on an old antidepressant - Nortriptylene. It is a tricyclic antidepressant. Those are the old ones, there are so many more new ones, SSRI's among several others. Maybe you need a new antidepressant. The tricyclic's are hardly ever prescribed anymore.

As for the posts, hang in. Sometimes the board seems to have few responders, and sometimes people are just too sick themselves to respond. I know I have been. I just got out of an inpatient emergency stage and got out a week ago. This is the first time I have posted since before I went to the hospital. I've been kind of reclusive.

Sorry the post is so long, I just feel for you. Know you are in my thoughts and pm me if you want to chat more.