My outbursts can and usually turn violent and therefore I must take responsibility for my actions or I will become a terrorist. Just as I want the man who caused my PTSD to take responsibility for his terrorizing actions, I must take responsibility for mine and not hide behind 'being a victim' or I will continue to cause harm to others. I can't live with causing harm to others, regardless of what has been done to me....I'm just not built that way.

I always apologize profusely after an outburst and genuinely mean it. But I also make myself understand that it is inappropriate behavior against others and it has to stop. I'm HURTING PEOPLE in so many ways and it can't go on....must stop. I will never stop trying to find a way to stop. It's my fault and I take responsibility.

Missi