Yo!

Tomorrow morning I have to go across the street to the hospital where I used to work to have an invasive (TEE)ECG...
It involves sliding down a camera-operated tube down my throat & O2 thru the nose. "Celeste" is the one of our selves that usually, impulsively ODed on a weekly basis for awhile.........back in the "old days" She is wound in knots b/c no matter how much we try to get her to "go elsewhere" for awhile........It's just like Rape PTSD.....your entire body goes into "Eject"......I don't care if I see Alice in Wonderland & the White Rabbit himself, NO tubes down our throat and/or nose!!!!!

I'm scared & should have posted earlier; the check in time is 0900 & procedure at 1030......sedated or not.......how do you keep a very STUBBORN & PANICKED "alter" from grabbing the doc bt the throat & threaten to strangle him & wind up doing a tour of our own psych ward????

In Panic: w/ anyone who responds...DAYZEE9