I wondered what happened to you. I thought you were on vacation or something...doesn't sound like a planned one.

It's been an insane rollercoaster for me the past few weeks too, but nothing like what you're talking about. Only momentary bad/invasive thoughts, but mostly just sleeping during the worst downswings.

So sorry you're going through it. Hope you get better soon, but even if you're still hurting, we love you just the way you are.

Take care of you. Don't worry about anything else. Once you feel a little better, things will come back into perspective. They always do. And when they do, don't beat up on yourself. You didn't ask for this disease. None of us did. You just have to deal with it as it hurls it's unforeseeable darts. Someday, I hope there will be a drug/treatment designed specifically for bipolar disorder. Then we'll be able to get on with our lives already! Because this sucks.

Here to listen whenever you need me.