I am working on my second week of school and I am already going to have to drop a class and add on another. What I didnt realize is that I took a class that was too advanced for me and when I took the test this weekend online I bombed it. Well, it didnt help that in the middle of the test my son accidentally broke a car window while mowing the lawn. I cried for hours that night. I felt stupid and worthless. I tried really hard on this test yet did so poorly. Even though my husband tried to make me feel better, it didnt. I wondered why he would want such a stupid person as his wife. My mind kept telling me my perfect grade had gone down the drain in one test even though this class had extra credit so I could have made some of this up, but no...I couldnt be reasoned with. Perfect, perfect, perfect.... everything always has to be perfect. Which you and I know hardly anything ever is but I try with all that is in me to make it be. Today I went into the success center at the college which was where I found out that the class I signed up for was all wrong for me. I was told to drop the class and pick up another - a computer class that is to start in July. Granted it is more money out of my pocket, but I can get rid of the bad test grade and start over in a new class. "Start over" is like "Perfect". I always want to start over so it can be done right - done perfect. It is so stressful. I know I do this to myself, but I cant seem to stop myself. Am I the only one that does this?

~Dawn