hey TPND...........hugs and just a few thoughts here...........
first let beads say that you are OKAY in bead's book, no matter what you do or don't write here.....you have a right to ALL of your feelings, even the ones that you are not proud of or that seem childish! we all have them!....
also........
about this ED thing, i know that you have had a lot of astuff happen in the past that you had no control over;could it be that your ED may be the one thing in your life that you mite have a bit of control over and therefore are hanging onto it? maybe iffen you could journeal or something and get out your feelings with regards to all that has happened in the past you could let go of some of it which might have a domino effect and maybe help you to also let go of the ED?...........just a suggestion and please know that beads here for you always
love, hugs, and tdeey bears,
mary susan