thank you all. its not so much that he has named that one, but i think that is the way she appears to the outside. she is completely different then any others. she is very aggressive with a strong southern accent. i believe that may be her way of protecting the final "me" that was lost. The scared girl is allowed to nod, but that is it. last session, part told my T to not to talk or try to bring "me" back untill i was done reading aloud about the current trauma we are working on. That was very new to me. but he was good about it. did put limits on how long i could stay silent, but that was ok, i guess. i hear what i say sometimes and think its not me, and hear his voice from some where else? i kinda trust him, learning to still. its still so much like a dream though. again, thanks