There's just one thing.. that I'm still not understanding..

I know he's controlling, and verbally abusive, but do you guys think he knows he's doing it? Not that I'm sticking up for him, because I'm not, but it just blows my mind that he could just be with me with every intention of hurting me... I would never have the heart to do that to him especially being with him for almost a year and a half. Is that just the kind of person he is? Does he even realize he's hurting me?