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I could have written your next to last paragraph!

As for being grateful, I prefer to think of my childhood as having been dealt a bad hand. I've made some bad plays, but I've learned to play my cards better. Next round will be even better than the last time.

I've accepted what happened to me and have picked at it until I found some good outcome. At first, I was aware of all the wasted time and I was very resentful. But when the coin is flipped, life has polished the other side to a shine. It still has a way to go, though. I wouldn't be who I am today if it hadn't been for my past experiences. But I can't say that I'm grateful.

<font color=blue>Don't die with your music still in you.</font color=blue>