I was once there not to long ago. I can understand what you mean and how scared you feel. I think my social anxiety was caused by all the people who were mean to me in school. I have to say that if I had to do it over again I would have stood up for myself more and kept on going. I know how hard that is to do, but the only way to get over the anxiety is to do what makes you anxious ( I have learned that from over 10 years of therapy). Just think of anxiety only as a fear and of course the only thing to fear is fear its self. Just keep telling yourself that and get some adults to help you if you feel it gets too bad. I wish you lots of luck and strength! You can pm me, chat with me, or voice chat with me anytime if you need or want to.