There are very good points to posting our feelings as we realize them. It is like journaling that allows input from other sourses for later reviewing. I was having a really hard time last week, feeling very uncomfortable with the situations I found myself in that put me back into the trauma feelings, thoughts that I had gone through. The uncomfortable feelings came flooding back. Major anxiety attacks, uncontrollable anger outbursts, & the horrible sensations that depersonalization causes just wouldn't stop. The me I really don't want to be took over control.

For days even my horses couldn't provide relief & I just couldn't concentrate on anything positive. I think however that my deep desire to NOT continue feeling that way finally won at least a little & am now able to again escape, at times, into the good things & feel relief again. It's a scarry feeling, wondering if you are getting trapped back into the horrible feelings that had control, but realizing that there really is the relief of feeling good even though the bad can show up at times makes the feeling good feel so much better.

Topping this all off, I had to take my computer in for service at the beginning of last week because I thought it was knocking me off the internet & causing my phone line to stop its connection, causing there to be no dial tone for hours which turned into days. The computer checked out & the phone checked out & then the dial tone quit again. It took not having my computer for a week & the phone company fixing a short after a week of trouble shooting the problem, to find that the cause was a short in our home phone line. That helped me decide on going with cable internet at this point. Guess that is taking a bad situation & making something good out of it & looking forward to working with a faster internet connection.

I think the motto of making something good out of something bad is a great way to look at things....what is that saying?....when you are given lemons, make lemonade.

Debbie