((((((((turquoisesea)))))))))

some of them think they are doomed and that they are evil and unforgiveable. it seems surreal to me the host, that they could believe such hideous lies. but then some bit of memory will come and then I know why they believe that. they are children, imperfect, but loved children. as host i need to be making sure they hear more truth from me. good reminder, thanks!!!

where is a safe place to put all the freakish feelings and strange thoughts? we don't think we should say the angry bitter stuff here and maybe hurt someone frail. but we don't always like to journal cos its only us there and we are lonely in this place we all live.

do you see your inside family? leslies friend naomi can see her alts and the house they live in. it sounds so cool. we live in dark and see nothing and no one. we turned the lights out early to survive and stop the littles from talking and getting us killed. someday i think the lights may get turned on in here again, after we deal with the most horrid stuff. it may happen soon. that would be awesome. i admire hellen keller, i just don't like living like a blind person. it's a f***** drag.

Leah