JayS,

I believe you. That kind of activity by your parent is extremely harmful to a small child and it does create experiences that are not explained in the everyday world. I am so sorry you were abused spiritually and emotionally. You were a precious baby and should have been raised in safety and love and were robbed of that protection that all children deserve. There is healing for spiritual abuse. I am getting it.

I am so sad for the child you were, but I do have hope that you can find healing and an easing of the crippling fears that spiritual darkness exposed you to with it's evil. Keep posting, darkness fades when it is brought out into the light. The first step is to call things what they really are. You are doing a brave and good thing for yourself and no one here would want you to hold back. I now refuse to keep the secrets they tried to force me to keep and even to take responsibility for. None of that was your fault.

Leslie/Multipixie9