Starlite.....When I met my girl I saw her beauty. I saw her for the "good heart" she had. I perceived that this was a woman who wanted people to recognize those good qualities some what desperately because she had been fighting her self image and the seeming tarnish of her "craziness" forever.
Her dream of someone to love "her" was my open door. As a man with a certain gift, I just knew instantly the value her true heart. My dream girl could not be denied.not by me. I actually love her more for some of the quirkiness. That is her. This is her personality.
I am a hopeless romantic, in case you couldn't tell. So I fell...right into the path of some real heartache. I don't think that those "sick butterflies have ever left as she has now many times treated me like roadkill. I took another "hit" this morning and am bewildered as to how I can accept this kind of treatment. What I hold fast to is a greater faith in her.
I have told myself "she doesn't mean it" as she bluntly insults me with words of a stranger who couldn't care less.I know the truth as I have to believe that the times when we are very close that look in her eyes could never be mistaken to be anything other than the real need of my love.
You Starlight are equally genuine in you opinions and insights and there is no reason to apologize. I think you were moved by the story and threw your heart into it. No one should mistake your intentions for anything other than a treasured thing. Blurt away! I'll start a fan club for you . Be brave ,it will make you strong.
PS: I will tell more of today's incident and other details if anyone wishes...I can't sleep this morning so....